Inspired

I really really wish I was typing this on a real keyboard! On my phone my thoughts cannot be fully explained.
I took the "back" way from Pleasant Hill to Elk Grove today and I had a mind, heart and soul awakening journey.The sun was so warm it felt like I was getting a tan through my jeans, the landscape was so sprawling I could see for miles. The roads were not perfect and had thousands of seam lines and potholes. There was little traffic and even when the cars were going 55 on a one lane highway there was never any urge to pass. I found peace in the fallen silos and abandoned farm equipment. I found appreciation in the land to which so many people work so hard to provide food and water. I went back to being 9 and playing hide and seek in bails of hay and imagining a Lewis and Clark adventure behinds trees and fallen fences.
I am relieved to say this was an awakening for me. The winters have made a trend of getting the best of me and I am thankful for the life injected into my bones today. Although I can't say that I am completely fixed nor have I figured the cure for my indecisive, impatient, sadly unmotivated self-I was able to be reminded that I do have depth and heart for many thing.
Today, I took the road less traveled and it has made all the difference.

What did you want to be when you were a child?

It was the common question: "What do you want to be when you grow up?!" I can remember saying things like a Marine Biologist- I don't remember having an obsession with marine life but you know how it goes when you're little; you see Free Willy or visit Marine World and your imagination goes crazy. I also said things like a Dentist- which I attempted as an adult (sort of) and that fell flat. I also wanted to be a teacher and spent most after school hours forcing my cousins to play school with me. All summer days included some form of imaginary classroom attendance and elementary workbook. The most pleasant and enjoyable childhood memory I carry is that of the imaginary classroom, handmade tests, cardboard box school buses and detention slips.
Right now, once again I am contemplating my college direction and the hovering pressure to choose a success path and an official title to what I want to become. I am pursuing a degree in Business Administration and have yet to find a passion towards any concentrations. They say, find what you love to do and you'll never work a day in your life. I'm not sure I have a love for business, in fact I a may only be choosing this path because it seemed to be the most direct and covers a broad range. What was it about being a child that allowed such a passionate and confirmed decision about becoming a working adult? Playing and pretending to do adult work is SO different than real life! So I sit here considering this: perhaps I had the right idea from the beginning, before all of the adult thinking and reasoning came into play. Perhaps going back to where I started is right where I'm meant to be? Maybe I knew myself better back then and the now me has just got lost in adulthood?
Now, time comes into play. And money. Do I have enough to start over? Would it be worth it? Or how can I transition what I already have and mix it with something backed with passion and create a convenient, swift and guaranteed happiness story? Wow, my constant attempt to figure life out is really preventing me from really living.... Isn't it?
I will have to revisit these thoughts as the deadline approaches for yet another Spring semester. Continue doing what I'm doing just for the simple fact of finally finishing? Or take the time to explore a love and passion towards something I will carry with me always?
To be continued.....

Fuck... This thing!

Oh.my.god. Have you ever used one of these devilish things before? I had to sit on the floor and fuck with it for 30 minutes just to figure out how to get it to turn on!

Here is a guide to putting together a food processor.... And I'm pretty sure I'm the only un-domestic female on earth that can't do shit like this so it will probably only help me. I'll use it for reference when I forget how because I only use it 2 times a year.
Use this little bastard first. The shit won't work if this isn't PROPERLY put in place like so;

Yep! Tricky lil fucker huh?!? It goes in the bottom of the giant cup thing first! NOT the base! So ya, put her in and lock her into place.
Stick the cup on, making sure the handle is situated on the RIGHT side of the lock-thingy-ma-jig. When it come times to turn the machine on, you have to lock 'n load with this part.

Use these two things together like so:


Use this deathly manta ray looking thing by itself.

And whatever the fuck this thing is by itself too.

Okay the next steps are tricky! Make sure this tunnel top thing is on the RIGHT of the handle, hold the handle steady and twist the top to the left and lock her into place.
Same with this thing useless piece of plastic tube thing... Place to the right, twist to the left. BUT wait! The bottom cup won't lock into place if the mother fucker is already plugged in and this useless plastic thing is locked! SO! UNLOCK the plastic useless thing, plug in the machine, lock the cup in, THEN twist the useless thing which is now not useless but the key to ease of use.

Locked, loaded and ready to shred your shit. Have fun and don't lose a finger!